I Need a Map

The original cast recording of the Dear Evan Hansen soundtrack has become my go-to music over the past few weeks. Maybe it’s because this amazing play was the last social event I attended before we went into quarantine, but these songs really hit home for me.

While each song resonates with me for a different reason, “Does Anybody Have a Map” is basically my anthem right now. Anyone else feeling this way lately?

Life is strange right now. I’m typically a total homebody, but right now, I want to be anywhere but here. Being home is typical for us with homeschooling, but I’m finding this to be extremely hard. Maybe it’s because I don’t like being told what to do. Whatever the reason, I’m feeling especially lost and like I’m flying blind right now. And I’m trying to be okay with that.

Our current situation isn’t one we can change overnight. It’s not one where I can be solely responsible for getting things back under control. I’m just one person who’s doing my tiny part to prevent the spread of COVID-19. We all have to work together. But during this time of turmoil and uncertainty, I think we are all wishing for a map. Or at least an end-date. Some way to know that it’s passed and we’re safe again.

So, if you’re like me and feeling completely lost right now, know that you’re not alone. Change is hard, and we’ve experienced so much in a short amount of time, it’s normal to feel scared, worried, and confused. Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

We may be alone in our homes right now, but we are united in cause. Remembering that makes me feel like I’m a part of something so much bigger than myself. And we’re all part of that. Of this global community. And I hope that we’ll all find peace in knowing that none of us are alone. And right now especially, we’re all making this up as we go.